S C A R E D
No matter when you think about it, you're always a little scared. Even when you think you aren't or have nothing to be scared over. All of us are truly afraid of something. Maybe it's something little like spiders or something bigger like jumping out of an airplane. Fears I think are slightly different than simply being scared of something.
You see, once you realize it, being scared could simply mean that you need to push yourself as well. Maybe fight for something you believe in. But maybe fighting for that something might be scarier than it seems.
Then again, right now, the word scared has another meaning for me. My health has been something that always scared me. Even 10 years ago when I thought I was healthy. Scared wasn't just what I was feeling then but it is what I feel now. Scared of living my life with this autoimmune disorder that no matter if I feel like I have handle over I never do. Scared of having to explain it to people and not knowing what they think of me afterward.
Yet there are days when I tell myself that being scared can't stop me either. Yes living life with a autoimmune disease can be hard but I still find ways to make my life worth it too. That's not something to be scared of. Is it?
-JS
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